Forgiveness

I was talking to Ian this morning at around 1210am....spoke for about 40 mins.

It then suddenly daunted upon me that i havent forgiven myself for so many of my faults.

I know I'm forgiven by others.....but i finally realised that the greatest obstacle in front of me..is actually myself....

I cant forgive myself for my wrongs....or rather, i find it hard....i've always forgiven people for their wrongs, but i just dont understand why i cant forgive myself. i hold on tightly to these wrongs and blame myself strongly for them...

interesting eh? i never realised it until this morning....

how long have i been living in unforgiveness? no idea..^_^

Cowkimon

A new rival to pokimon....






p.s. a big THANK YOU to my PhD mate ISFAAQ TIMOL for sending me this pic in my email. So now dont say that i dont love you! ^_^

See Ya

well, that's it. My elder brother has left Melbourne...for good =(

I drove him to the airport and we didnt quite say much...cause he was sleeping throughout the whole journey! hahaha! think he didnt sleep much the night before.

Dropped him off at the airport and went back to Uni. As i was driving back to Uni, so many flashbacks came...as usual. And to some extent, i was glad that he had the opportunity to come to Melbourne. We have had been through some really heartwarming times (eg. graduations and bdays) and some really heartwrenching times. BUt at the end of it all, I think we really did grow closer together. perhaps the only 'regret' that i had was not visiting him in the city as much as i could.

feeling kinda sad....i mean..he was my only family (bar aside the frens and stuff...^_^) here in melb, and now i'm alone again. feels a little empty for me. but oh wells, it's just me. I'll get over it...

love you bro....

>.<

Teaching and Markers

I must be mad today.

I just concluded a 2 hour tutorial in Econometrics.

I used up 4 whiteboard markers.

Pity my students....

(p.s. To those who are outdated, yes, i am tutoring a 2nd year subject in uni....)

Under Cover

Strength under control.
Emotions under control.
Thoughts under control.

I realise that as one grows older, there's much more things to bear and we need to learn how to handle it individually without pulling down others.

Mark of maturity? or just a mark of withdrawal?

i dunno ^_^

Too much knowledge is unwise...


Lemma 1: Knowledge is Power.
Lemma 2: Time is Money.

As every engineer knows,

Work
---------- = Power
Time

Since Knowledge = Power, and Time =Money, we have

Work
--------- = Knowledge
Money

Solving for Money, we get:

Work
----------- = Money
Knowledge

Thus, as Knowledge approaches zero, Money approaches infinity regardless of the Work done.
Conclusion: The Less you Know, the more money you Make.

When tagged, answer...it's courtesy

oh wells, since i got tagged..i better answer it...dun wanna ignore it for the 3rd time....(cant believe i'm actually doing this....)

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
28

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Spending quality time with loved ones

3. If you have a close close close friend since childhood who loves to take away whatever you like, including guys/girls, and he/she always wins, will you still consider him/her your friend?
If I'm able to be genuinely happy for him/her, yeap, tt's proof of a friendship. =)

4. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat?
erz...i really have no idea...i dont waste time thinking about hypothetical questions whereby i can reject the null hypothesis with 100% confidence...i'm now left mulling over what kind of probability distribution it follows in order to apply the appropriate inference test.....

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Physically, no
figuratively, of course!

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Well, i dont think so. BUt i know i really cannot survive without friends.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Close ones

8. What do you feel like doing, right now?
Sleep for a solid 8 hours without having to wake up 4 times in the night!!!!!

9. If there's someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Nope. i prefer doing it the biblical way, and that is to obtain approval from parents and shepherds =)

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
stable, a girl beyond her age, passionate

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Love me unconditionally, and me being able to love her unconditionally.

12. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
who's the he/she the qn is referring to?

13. What would you do if you cannot get what you want in life?
I'm currently learning how to be content
1 Tim 6: 8 "But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that."

14. What do you think 'Love' is?
Always about the other person

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy.

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Impatience

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Loving in action and not in words.

18. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Teaching

19. Is there a specific song that can describe your current mood?
The Same Power

20. If you had 24 hours to do anything, anything at all in the world, whether it be realistically possible, what would it be?
Impartation