Sunday, November 13, 2005
~ 12:54 PM ~
Today was a very special day for Rachel, Ron and Mei. It was a day when the 3 of them were baptized. Baptism is a sign of acceptance of Christ and obedience to God (hope this is a satisfactory definition..).
We went to the beach to conduct and witness this special occasion. One by one, each of the 3 walked into the sea where Ruth and Keith performed some prayers and immersed each of them completely into the water. It was a simple yet life defining ceremony.
Whilst I congratulate Rachel Ron and Mei, i must say tt i am especially happy for Rachel. I really believe that coming to Australia has been a turning point in her life. Compared to the Rachel that i knew last yr, the Rachel that stands in front of me has seemed to blossom. In my opinion, Rachel has grown to be more independent, taking more control of her life. She has learned to open up and is more radiant now. Basically, i think that she is happier now than before. There are even times now when I feel that Rachel is better than me in handling certain things. Shall not mention them but I know for sure, Rachel is beginning to see more direction in her life. m really happy for u rach..
Was talking to Rach over MSN just now and I asked her, "What does it mean by accepting Christ?"
This question aroused simply because everyone has been saying it but no one has been saying HOW to do it...i have always thought that believing in the existence of Christ means accepting Christ. Wrong, i was.
Accepting Christ means believing that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. It comes from the heart and you believe that you will enjoy eternal life with Jesus. You believe that Jesus died so that the world may be saved.
Abstract isnt it? When Rachel told me all these, i began to ask myself, how am i gonna do this? How am i going to sincerely believe all these? All these sentences are facts that I can choose to simply believe in, but is it that simple? I dont think so... I dun even know how to go about starting to believe it. I cannot imagine the circumstance in which i can believe all these. Do i try reasoning it rationally and logically? or do i try believing it emotionally? brain over heart or heart over brain or both? i do not know...
It's simple for me to say "Yes i believe that Jesus died for our sins", but i somehow do not feel anything...i do not feel any sort of emotions or impact as i see this sentence and go thru it my heart umpteen times. Perhaps this is the stumbling block where i cant seem to go on.
Frens have been praying and hoping that i will accept Christ one day..but till i know more about Christ and experience the kind of impact that convinces me to believe..it's quite hard for me to do so. coz i hope that the day i accept christ, it is because i truly believe and not because everyone hopes me to do so...
After writing all these, i now wonder...have i started it all wrong in the 1st place?
