We assume too much

During one of my breaks this afternoon in office, i was browsing through some of my friends' blogs and i came across one which i have not read for a long time cause he relocated his blog and i didnt bother updating.

I was saddened by one of his posts....i did not realise that his dad had passed away about more than 6 months ago....

in his post..i had to agree with him that we assume too much about life. We assume that we will live a long life, a life long enough to see through your graduation, your marriage, your kids, your career, your retirement. His dad only had 6 months to live back then....only 6 months....

I think i was also upset at the fact that this friend of mine was actually a very close friend of mine when i was in secondary school. in fact, i called him brother. tt was how close we were. it's sad tt as always, i always fail to keep in contact with people. i let distance and time fail a relationship.
This was a friend whom i knew well. I knew his sister and mum. I also used to go over to his place to stay over and just chill out.

to that friend, if you happen to read this post...i'm sorry.....

Conference COming

Will be flying off this Sat morning to Hamilton islands for my 1st ever phd conference...am excited for it, also looking forward to it, yet there's a part of me that's apprehensive about it...but i shall not say why....all i can say is that this apprehension is coming from 3rd parties....lets also say i need to be in step with the spirit at all times....

have been sorting out some admin stuff for the trip since last thurs...i realised how much stuff i didnt do cause i tot everything was done for me...

had to email accommodation, check transport, print out listings of lectures, print out instructions, check air tickets, read up on topics, planning some trips that i hope to go on board over there

so much to do...and let alone the Pasta night event that we're having this Thursday, and with my PhD work hitting against a hard wall (i.e. no breakthrough), things seem to be just so tough this week...and oh ya, did i mention that i had to repair one of my car tyres coz it got punctured by a small safety pin??
and yea...i'm having a severe lack of sleep AGAIN...i actually fell asleep in office today.....

let me pull through this week....please...

=)

Phone Calls when I am sleeping

I received a phone call at 7am this morning, followed by another by a different person at 710am. Obviously, i was still sleeping and couldnt talk much over the phone..i'm just blur...but tt was not too bad....i recalled of 2 incidences when something really farnie happened....

this happened twice..to ian song and chiann. Basically, i was dead tired and was sleeping really soundly. They called me....and i picked up the phone...but didnt say anything over the phone....

You know what's the best part? i didnt know i picked up the phone....

So when they saw me and asked y i didnt say anything over the phone, i responded "huh? when did you call me?"

I then checked my phone records and yea....it showed tt they called and i did pick up the phone....HAHAHAHAHAH!!! i didnt even know

ian was saying tt i was breathing quite loudly over the phone...hahahaha!

oh wells, anyone wants to try calling me when i sleep? ^_^

Random thoughts

i seldom have the luxury of time to just sit and wander in my thoughts..so i'll just write whatever random stuff comes into my mind.

I.
Results were released last night and as i went to office this morning, there were quite a no. of students that came to our department asking to review their exam papers (students who failed their subject)...they were all first year students..
my office became a hot zone immediately as 3 of us are tutors...however i wasnt involved as i tutor a 2nd year subject and none of my students that failed came to ask to review their paper..but my other 2 mates had to review papers since they teach 1st year units....
i can only say..it wasnt too sightly a scenario....perhaps there was a lack of compassion, a lack of understanding...i just dont agree with the way things are done...things are done for formality's sake oh wells, i guess the system always does us in...

II.
I'm coming to realise that sometimes being 'different' can be a painful price tag you need to bear....

So what if i'm fat?
So what if i cant play sports that well?
so what if i cant play computer games?
and so what if i dont play computer games?
so what if i'm bad at sports and com games?
so what if i'm someone who studies/works a lot??
So what if i'm a CHristian?
So what if you dont agree with my life?

it's simple actually, i'm just me, and you're just you.
Do me a favour too, please dont use your life as a benchmark to measure mine against yours and then make comments about what I should or should not do..it's dumb..no..i'm not referring to spiritual stuff. spiritual life, yes please do...apostle paul told us to imitate the faith of our leaders =)

III.
Trying to be politically correct is one of my toughest challenge. sometimes, i just hate it...period.

IV.
Sometimes i just hate my mouth....

V.
I lack showing love to people. it's kinda sad when people say to me "you just dont care about me do you?" i think it hurts me as much as it hurts them

VI.
If only people could be more responsible towards other people....

VII.
I think i shall end here....^_^