Sibling Love
Jeffrey is sitting at his seat now, in front of his laptop, designing a logo. Nope, the logo is not part of his assignment, it's his sister's project that he is helping with.

Over this week, I have seen Jeffrey on a couple of occassions help his sister (who is located in Msia) design certain logos. It's also this month that I have seen Jeffrey display amazing brotherly love for his sister. Coming to think of it, I have been blind not to see it.

I can see the effort he is putting in designing the logo for his sister. Frequently editting it, and letting out certain some sounds of slight frustration at times. Yet, he hums along with the music I am playing out from my laptop...seems to be enjoying doing it...I can really see the immense effort he is putting in the design. I perhaps should also make a note that Jeffrey is an engineering student, so design is not his cup of tea per se. I can see that spirit of excellence he is striving for...it's just so evident.

I ask myself, have i ever done anything for my brother? I have done a lot of mundane stuff for him...like helping him out with housework, buying him meals....but, have i gone to a huge extent to help him out in any circumstance before? I am afraid to say that i cant recall of any situation....

This doesnt mean that i am on bad terms with my brother...we were before..when we were young and I think this is reasonable...we were young and irrational then.

I have always thought that love does not have to be expressed in such an explicit manner. I still hold onto this belief. But perhaps, it is time to expand this definition of love...

Pondering, wondering, thinking....

Where are the shadows?

This is the final week of exams, and today is the second last day of the exam period. i will be having my final paper tomorrow. If it's not obvious, it also translates into majority of the Uni students having ended their examinations some time ago...some a few weeks ago, some a few days ago, and some just a few hours ago...only a minority of us are stuck at home digging into that pile of books and notes....

I walked to Uni this morning at around 11 to consult my lecturer about some lecture content..as I walked through Uni, I felt so much at peace with myself. There wasnt a single person on the big grass patch that I normally walk pass...Absolutely no one. And for the 1st time in this semester, the chirping of the birds high up on the trees were so audible. I liked the tranquility. I liked the cold wind blowing gently at my face. I knew I was communing with nature. I stopped for a while, closed my eyes and just enjoyed this rare moment of peace...

I was immersed into my own thoughts. How wonderful this feeling is, I told myself. Perhaps this is the kind of environment that I really like....no one, just nature...no words, but the rustling of the leaves and chirping of birds....

How golden the moment was....

WILL

"The human flesh can be trampled on, but it is the will of a person that is unbreakable."

How strong is our will? Our will to commit to a certain goal..our will to ensure that success is on the way. Our will to stand firm in our beliefs!!!

We are all different people, people with different ideologies and thoughts. This may be one of the sources of conflict. But when people put you down, when people poke you with sarcasm, when people criticise you...what is your response?

Do you rebuke them? Do you fight back? Do you persist in what you believe in? Do you stand firm? Or do you conform under pressure?

We will face opposition, we will face difficulties and we will face obstacles. We will be torn and battered from war. The human flesh can be trampled on...but our will should never be trampled on by anyone else...unless we allow them to.

Thank you Dhany!

Received a blessing from Dhany today! He cooked dinner for me today! He called me this afternoon asking me whether he could cook dinner for me as I was busy studying for an exam tomorrow. I kindly obliged! haha!

And thanks to jonathan for delivering the food to my doorstep!

Dhany cooked rice with my favourite vegetable!! BROCOLLI!!! haha! with mushrooms and eggs...a very healthy diet indeed....been kinda long time since i ate so much vegetable..haha!

Am really grateful for friends who take time to prepare meals for others in times of need and as a sign of support..am blessed...thank you brothers!

off to bed!!..well..in 30 mins time...haha!

Fighto!

Today was the commencement of my exams..had labour economics paper today. was manageable. wat was not so manageable was the weather. had to battle a 4 degree temperature from home all the way to Caufield for the examination...absolutely f r e e z i n g...time to increase the number of layer of clothings from 3 to 4....lol

anywayz, was inspired to write a blog entry as I just saw one of my friend's MSN nick as “永不放弃挑战世界上最强的对手-自己." Translating it, it means, never give up challenging the strongest opponent on earth- yourself.

Somehow, I just feel the revival for the need and desire to keep challenging myself in everything i do. Strive for the spirit of excellence is what I aspire to do. Yet, there has to be a balance. Many a times I over-do it. Really tricky.

"One cannot afford to rest on his laurels. We live in a competitive society. A very realistic society. You've gotta be competitive in order to survive." This was what I would most probably say about a few months back. This interpretation takes on a view that the strongest will survive and prey on the weak.

However, when I first saw this chinese phrase, my first instinct was to treat it as a personal commission. To make it a personal motto. If I am successful because of this personal pledge, it is a bonus. If not, this personal commission will mould my character, i believe.

Not sure on how to express it...but I do feel really inspired by such a simple yet motivating phrase....

FIGHTO!

study mode? stress mode? desperate mode? exasperated mode?

My 1st paper is starting in exactly 15 hours time. It's not that I am not revising now. I already have..and still am..but I am taking it easy at this time. I don't believe in shifting up the gear about 15 hours before a start of the paper (inclusive of sleep). Not speaking for all, but for me, if i were to carry on studying till the very start of the paper, I would most probably die of exhaustion and not reach the exam hall...literally...haha! Not making fun of anyone here okie..just feel that I need to balance my mood and prepare my heart for the battle.

It's very interesting to see your friend's MSN nicknames at this point in time. The top of the list is "DND..unless important". DND = do not disturb. Other interesting ones are stress mode = 200%. About 30 of my friends are online now...but only about 2 or 3 are on 'online' status. The others are either on busy or away status. kinda farnie...everyone is really studying!

oh wells, 13 weeks of semester have passed. just 3 more weeks to go and I will be able to rejoice! (not tt i m not rejoicing now anywayz...) have already made many many plans for after exams...and one of these plans is to LOSE WEIGHT..and i mean LOTS of weight....

all da best folks!

"I can do all things through Him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13)

Happy Birthday Dad!

I think this is one of the craziest thing i have done..oh wells...have a happy bday dad! dun mind the singing okie? haha!

Love you lots and love you always!